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So, I have crazy ideas all the time. Things pop in my brain. For the longest time I thought it was just me but God has been teaching me when the idea is his and when it is mine. He has something big for me. I know what you're thinking, he has it for all of us but I don't ya'll. I have this gut feeling I am not going to be your regular American. I don't think I'll ever have a kid of my own. I don't think I'll live around my family (which fyi is the hardest off all to swallow, because ya'll know i love my family). I don't think I will stay in this country. I don't think I'll teach forever. I don't even think I'll ever get married. I don't really know what all this means. Here is what I do know. I don't have to worry about it. God is in the process of preparing my mind, emotions, and body for whatever he has for me. I am praying for when the time comes, I will do it. Not question but do it. God equips us no only physically and spiritually, but also in our desires. I will say I have desires in my heart I never imagined I would want I know that is from him. Only from him. So I don't know a lot, but I'm here and loving every step.