spring

I feel as though my life has been in a season of winter. Not dead, but sleeping. A season of waiting. For about a year now I have been in this season and God keeps revealing himself and his truths to me through this season yet those truths have yet to be fulfilled. But, part of thinks they may be starting to awaken. The truths and the words are in the budding stages, like spring. I'm not saying we are blooming yet, but I will say there is starting to be a moving, a stirring. All that was trimmed away in my life, all that has been resting in my heart, all that I have been waiting for is starting to unfold. Kind of cool. Kind of scary. Kind of unsure of it all, but all in all at complete rest with it.
One of the cool things about God is he gives us a will. We have a free will. We are not puppets on a string. I read an interesting passage the other day by an author telling how we are co-laborers with Christ, not mealy puppets on a string. God will place desires in our heart, yet when we are working with Christ we may have desires too and He will fulfill those desires. It has been interesting. I don't quite understand it all yet but I'm getting clarity little by little.
Have you ever wondered if when you have prayed over anyone to feel better if the person really did, or if God healed that particular person? I believe in healing, I believe in the power of prayer, I believe in the supernatural power of God. So, I have a friend I recently prayed over to feel better and no joke as I was praying my hand got really hot at the spot I was touching. It was one of those things where I thought, hum... my hand is hot. I'm only imagining this. I'm just thinking this is happening because I've read where other peoples hands get hot when they are praying for healing, and I'm not one who God could use to really heal someone from sickness. Nope. Please understand I am not saying God can't heal, or that he will use me to be the one to pray a prayer of healing over a person, but the enemy really attacked me. I started to second guess what God was doing. So, is the person healed? I'm not really sure, I don't know, but my hand was extremely hot, and I know God's power has often been demonstrated and released with signs of heat.
That's all for now.