Dear Daddy- 10

April 21, 2021

Dear Daddy, 

It's been 4 months.  I still cry. Probably 5 times a week.  But I was told it never gets easier I just get stronger.  Stronger what?  Stronger in how I can do things without you. Stronger with going day by day, or stronger in the Lord. 

I think stronger in Jesus.  So I have been listening to this song called Miracles.  This song is something that I sang, praying for a miracle over you and it didn't happen. So I have started to realize that the miracle that I prayed for is bigger than what I wanted .  I prayed for your healing but I didn't get it.  I prayed for you to stay here with me and that miracle didn't happen either.  I keep praying from miracles and the only hope I have is that I see the bigger miracle in the disappointment of what I didn't get. 

The ones who wrote the song birthed it after a hard time in their life and when asked they said we can either still believe who God says when we didn't experience what we wanted or we can not trust him at all.  They decided to lean in closer to the Lord and truly rest in what His plan is will be better than we can imagine, even in the hardest of disappointments.  I am getting there.  I think I am in a better spot now than I was 2 months ago.  

Getting stronger but still missing you. 

Be Particular, 
Me.