what now?

I'm a pretty patient person.  I am forgiving.  Think the best of people, but sometimes folks do me wrong.  Sometimes I trust and believe.  Sometimes I hold onto hopeful promises made.  Sometimes I believe in things that may or may not be exactly true.  Sometimes people disappoint me.  And sometimes I have to face the facts of what is, is and what ain't, ain't.  I think right now I have to hold out.  I have to wait.  Wait for age and time to change things.  Wait for life to make since.  But maybe not.  Maybe now is the time to let go and realize once again it ain't me.  It's ain't the country girl from Carolina.  It ain't the teacher.  It ain't the crazy runner who loves to do it all.  But have no fear at some point in time there will be a time when it is me.  I am the one that is ran after and desired.  Maybe not today... but someday... and all those in the past who where thought to be the hoped for will be a faint image...