A Rare Moment

There have only been a few times in my life when I didn't know what to say or couldn't write down what I wanted to say.  For example: college graduation day looking at my momma and seeing a little tear, the logic in moving to Concord, first day of Kindergarten, standing over the casket of my best friend, and a week ago when I said so long to a boy I have only known this summer.  For an entire week I attmeped to write some form of so long letter, but each attmpt was a failure.  The letter either sounded like a country song, could be a country song, rambled, or had so many scratched out sentences it looked like the art work of a 2 year old.  I even wrote a letter about how I couldn't write a letter (now that is lame!). 
I think deep down I didn't want to write a good bye letter because I didn't want this person to leave.  I didn't want to accept the fact of not knowing when or if we'd ever meet again. Time and distance has a crazy effect on people.  SO... with a big hug, (complete avoidance of eye contact), and a kiss on the cheek, I said, "see you in the states."  Yep... What was that!?!?  I don't know.
Because as soon as the words were released from my mouth my brain realeased a.. "we'll see about that."  Ya'll all know these kinds of good byes.  The ones on high school graduation when you say, "Oh, I'll come visit you on break," only to be followed by 5 years of never staying in contact until you "run into" each other at a high school reunion.  You know?  You bound to know!
Anyway, I had an anti-climatic departure of a good friend whom I have come to enjoy being around this entire summer.  No real plan of what is next, only contact info scribbled on a piece of scrap notebook paper, placed in his shirt pocket as he walked away.  Why contact info?  Because that's the only dang thing I could think to write!  And, who mails letters anymore? (well, i do actually.  It's important to support the US Mail.) 
Ironically enough, in my reflection of what I should have said, country song lyrics (old and new), combined with jumbled thoughts return!