This is not a tribute to MLK but a for real dream I had. As most know paw paw died 4 months ago and i'm sure you all (if anyone reads this thing besides renn) are tired or reading about him but he's still heavy on my heart. Not a day goes by with out a song, picture, phrase, or memory of him popping in my mind but last Monday Night was the first time Paw Paw was in one of my dreams. Which is kind of erie because it was 4 months from the day of his death. So here it is.
In my dream I'm in the backyard of my best friend from grade school, Casey Rudd's, house. She has this crazy pond with a land bridge that crosses to a stretch of trees and then an open field. I haven't been to Casey's parent's house in many years so the fact I was there is strange to me. So here I am in my dream, I look up and there is Paw Paw. On the land bridge. He looks at me and I yell, "Hey Paw Paw. Wait for me." He turns and starts walking to the trees. Of course I run after him and in my brain think this is crazy he's dead but I follow. So Paw Paw hasn't said anything to me as of yet in this dream but I follow him through the trees and to the open field where he stops. (keep in mind paw paw has never been at my friend's house so it is kind of weird he is here....) But back to the dream, he stops and I catch up to him and say, "Paw Paw I haven't seen you in for ever. I miss you so much." He looks down at me and says, "Floss, Don't fall." and... that's it. I wake up. That's all. It was so real. I have no idea what this means. I know God still speaks through dreams and visions but I don't know... was this from God? I feel I'm going to have to wait this one out and find out the meaning.
Call me crazy if you like but it was good to see him, Paw Paw. I know this sounds crazy... but in my dream I really felt him there. It was like Paw Paw was back with his hat, blue shirt and blue britches. For a brief moment. He was alive... and ... well... it was nice. And I feel ridiculous even admitting that but it's true. It was almost as though I had one more conversation with him. Will I dream about him again? I don't know but i sure hope so.
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