So Long Paw Paw

I'm not about to start this blog with, he's in a better place. It's true but that's not helping right now. Right now I hurt. Right now I'm thinking this sucks. Right now I'm trying to remember all the times we shared but am drawing a blank. Right now I'm grieving for the greatest human I have ever know. I miss him. He's my Paw Paw. He's the same man who sets the tone of this family. This is the man who helps any and all. This is the man who is there for you when you didn't know you needed someone to be there. He's the greatest man I've ever know. I love him so much. I already miss him. Never again will I hear.. Floss what you doing? Come on Flossie. When he died every name he had ever given died with him. He is gone. Gone. I can't stand it. You know, my name (lasley) is honored because of him. He has built such a great name the entire community is weeping. Every life he touched he changed. He showed love to all people. He never asked for anything. Never wanted help. He showed God's love. He represented the love of Christ in ways many never reach or receive.... so long Paw Paw.

Christmas 09

This year I was thinking about Christmas and the idea of tradition. Just know the Lasley's do tradition but not really. We all get together on Christmas at Lunch. That's about as traditional as it goes. My mom's side, we always get together, but it's pretty different every year because we rotate houses, eat supper, and get loud. I have decided to make a kind of list saying what is and isn't the same.

Same: The most important.... all family members (and gfs/bfs), Dirty Santa, Chocolate Cake, sausage balls, pants size, christmas tractor

Different: Elevation Uptown *which is going to become a staple christmas activity*, MMW christmas eve, No cadle song, Christmas at Sylvia's, daddy decorates tractor, Horner's at Momma's, Christina comes, Engagement, no fruit tray but fruit salad, and PAYTON> Speaking of Payton... isn't she cute!

the end

Saturday the boys walked off the field, heads hung, helmets dragging and i know there were a few tears shed. This was the end of years of playing ball together. The end of a season in their life. The last time they will all be part of this phenomenal team. It was the end. In the stands I could since the same tension. This is the end of watching these boys every Friday night. This is the end of this particular group of parents preparing meals, tailgating, and having the close bond. From years in Mite league and now Varsity High School State Championship contenders, these parents have been through it all. I sat and took it in. It all in. Watched this season end. Not in the way we all wanted but in a way that was tough. They say you learn more from a loss than a win. So, here is what I'm thinking, what if the season you are in ends in a way you didn't desire. It ends in a way you don't understand. It ends in a way that doesn't seem fair. Well the interesting part is understanding, it's all for the good. Yep that's right. It's all for the good. The one who ends the season is equipping for the one to come. SO Yes a state championship would be nice, but maybe it's the hurt of missing it that makes the college state championship mean more? Or the Super Bowl victory mean more. Or the desire to work harder and never feel this way again take effect. You do learn more from a loss. This idea can also apply to life. The season you are in right now didn't really end the way you wanted. The relationship didn't end the way you wanted. The job didn't end the way you wanted. The church you're end is ending in a way you didn't want. Just know its all equipping. It's all preparing you for whats to come.

Friday Nights... so far

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So, I have crazy ideas all the time. Things pop in my brain. For the longest time I thought it was just me but God has been teaching me when the idea is his and when it is mine. He has something big for me. I know what you're thinking, he has it for all of us but I don't ya'll. I have this gut feeling I am not going to be your regular American. I don't think I'll ever have a kid of my own. I don't think I'll live around my family (which fyi is the hardest off all to swallow, because ya'll know i love my family). I don't think I will stay in this country. I don't think I'll teach forever. I don't even think I'll ever get married. I don't really know what all this means. Here is what I do know. I don't have to worry about it. God is in the process of preparing my mind, emotions, and body for whatever he has for me. I am praying for when the time comes, I will do it. Not question but do it. God equips us no only physically and spiritually, but also in our desires. I will say I have desires in my heart I never imagined I would want I know that is from him. Only from him. So I don't know a lot, but I'm here and loving every step.