spring

I feel as though my life has been in a season of winter. Not dead, but sleeping. A season of waiting. For about a year now I have been in this season and God keeps revealing himself and his truths to me through this season yet those truths have yet to be fulfilled. But, part of thinks they may be starting to awaken. The truths and the words are in the budding stages, like spring. I'm not saying we are blooming yet, but I will say there is starting to be a moving, a stirring. All that was trimmed away in my life, all that has been resting in my heart, all that I have been waiting for is starting to unfold. Kind of cool. Kind of scary. Kind of unsure of it all, but all in all at complete rest with it.
One of the cool things about God is he gives us a will. We have a free will. We are not puppets on a string. I read an interesting passage the other day by an author telling how we are co-laborers with Christ, not mealy puppets on a string. God will place desires in our heart, yet when we are working with Christ we may have desires too and He will fulfill those desires. It has been interesting. I don't quite understand it all yet but I'm getting clarity little by little.
Have you ever wondered if when you have prayed over anyone to feel better if the person really did, or if God healed that particular person? I believe in healing, I believe in the power of prayer, I believe in the supernatural power of God. So, I have a friend I recently prayed over to feel better and no joke as I was praying my hand got really hot at the spot I was touching. It was one of those things where I thought, hum... my hand is hot. I'm only imagining this. I'm just thinking this is happening because I've read where other peoples hands get hot when they are praying for healing, and I'm not one who God could use to really heal someone from sickness. Nope. Please understand I am not saying God can't heal, or that he will use me to be the one to pray a prayer of healing over a person, but the enemy really attacked me. I started to second guess what God was doing. So, is the person healed? I'm not really sure, I don't know, but my hand was extremely hot, and I know God's power has often been demonstrated and released with signs of heat.
That's all for now.

update

The fact i haven't posted a blog in forever can help explain how busy I have been the past few weeks. I started home bound teaching 2 kids. Which consists of an extra 10 hours of week outside of school. I also am helping with the girls b-ball team, which is another 8 hours a week. Plus I like to stay involved with my family, so driving back and forth from here to home takes a ton of time too. It has been pretty hectic but I Love it. I do better when I'm busy. I think I function better. But the main thing I have to say is PERSPECTIVE. God has really been keeping my perspective in check. He keeps putting kids in my life with hard times, awful times, and making me see how good I have it and have HAD it. My life has been amazing. I never truly knew how wonderful it was until I see the lives some of these other kids have to live and face daily. Everything is a matter of perspective. Take a step back and look at the situation. From what angle do you see it?? The same question of is the glass half full, or half empty?

glow stick

I have thing for stars. IF you don't believe me go back and read one of my blog entries from November 2008. I love the stars! Paul writes in Philippians 2 that I will shine like the stars in the universe. The stars shine all the time but you see them best at night. You see the stars even better when it's really dark and the stars are the only light. Sometimes God lets the circumstances around you go dark so you will shine with His light. Right before the star statement he says to do everything without grumbling or arguing. Meaning no complaining. Complaining is more or an insult to God's character than an accurate assessment of the situation at hand. Not complaining is the outflow of the inward growth we have in Christ. Think about this... if we do everything without complaining no matter how horrible the circumstances may be we shine like the stars. God shines through when we don't complain! We shine him! Happiness is a symptom of circumstances but joy is a product of perspective and no matter what happens to me God is still good and I will be grateful. Perspective is hard to remember. But whatever we think is bad, there is somebody else who has it worse or who has had it worse.

Okay. This one is my favorite. Think of a glow stick! you have to break it and turn out the lights before you can really see it shine. Sometimes God has to break you and turn out the lights (make the circumstances dark) before his glory will truely shine!

This is what I learned at church this weekend! Pretty cool huh? Check out the sermon at http://www.elevationchurch.org/