Confused

So for the past week I have been in this state of confusion, loneliness, and just emptiness. I didn't know why. I mean, I have been at complete rest with God putting me in the place, putting me in this job, and just having me at this point in my life... but still confusion. And yesterday at Church Clayton King (amazing pastor FYI) was guest speaker and it was as though God gave him these words to tell me... Clayton said, "He is still Lord, in your confusion, loneliness, desperation, He is still Lord." I know... I know... Heather you know this, but it kind of resonated with me yesterday. Again, I was reminded I have no control over anything, He is Lord, and my plans really don't matter because it is God's plans that I desire. Granted I don't understand what they are but I play inning by inning. It seems I have to keep being reminded because often I want to slip back into trying to plan things out, trying to make My plans work. It says in the Bible ask and it shall be given, well, true but only if what you are asking for is in the desires of what God has for you. So really I have to keep asking God and resting in God to make my desires come from Him, so when I do ask I will receive. Sometimes it’s hard because sometimes what I desire isn’t a desire from God. “Lord I ask for your desires to become my desires.”