Thursday, December 25, 2008

Lasley Family Christmas


There is nothing like a Lasley Family Christmas. There is the pot luck lunch, which consists of all the food one would expect to see at a southern baptist homecoming. Then there is the dirty Santa where the hot gifts (well, the ones that are stolen) are usually Green and Yellow, or Chocolate Covered. Next there is the "ya'll come back at supper for leftovers" meal at night. It's amazing. There is no other gathering like it. It is one to experience.
But it hit me today. The IT being next Christmas will be different from this one. For starters there will be an addition to the family, my niece of nephew and of course all of ya'll know about August 14th, and then there is the fact that maybe, just maybe, there could be a loss. I'm just saying. Most years my cousin's and I go see a movie on Christmas night. Not this year. This year was different. Honestly, I didn't want to go see a movie. I don't know why but I wanted to go back over to my Maw Maw and Paw Paws house for leftovers. I know... it's a lot of food. But all I wanted was to make extra memories and spend as much time with Maw Maw as possible. So... we laughed at her, we listened to her, and we watched her. She is the funniest person I know. Tonight I was watching her and I could see her age, I could see she was not in the best of health, and I could see how it is very much a possibility she may not be there next year. With all this cranking in my mind I went for a ride on my four wheeler, parked in the middle of what was a soy bean field, turned off the lights and stared at the stars (ya'll know I like stars). Trying to think about the year, trying to think about this time in my life, and asking God questions and wondering why God is being silent. Silent on issues on every aspect of my life from boys-living-work-and future plans. SO I wait. I really want to know who it is, and I really want to know when it will happen. Silence. Then I start praising Him. Praising Him for my family, praising him for this additional year with everyone around, praising him for the clear night with stars, and praising him for his just blessing me. Its amazing how much things clear up when you start to just praise God and not question God. No joke, I promise before I drove back to the house, there appeared to be more stars in the sky. Amazing!

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Just Read a Book!

Yesterday, no joke, it seemed as though every vehicle I stopped behind at a stop light had a DVD playing for whom ever was in the backseat. Seriously, I saw Nemo, Sponge Bob, Dora, Home Alone, and several other screens with shows or movies I can't remember. IT WAS CRAZY. My question: Is there anything wrong with looking out the window? Can kids not look out the window? Are parents not wanting to talk to their kids? What is the deal? Roald Dahl said along time ago in his novel Charlie and the Chocolate Factory that the TV was going to turn kid's brain's to mush. If you don't believe me go read it. Its in the part where Mike Teevee has shrunk and the umpla lumpas sing about it. Read a book. Kids are having trouble in school because they don't know how to think, because their entire life (including trips to town) are in front of a screen. READ. That is the key. Reading. Whether it be comic books, cereal boxes, war and peace, or the signs on the side of the road. Just Read.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

thank you renn... NOT

1. Wrapping paper or gift bags?
Paper

2. Real tree or Artificial?
fake

3. When do you put up the tree?
after tday before christmas day.. you never know

4. When do you take the tree down?
before MLK day or the MLK day

5. Do you like eggnog?
no

6. Favorite gift received as a child?
BIKE

7. Hardest person to buy for?
paw paw

8. Easiest person to buy for?
me

9. Do you have a nativity scene?
yes.  

10. Mail or email Christmas cards?
neither.. 

11. Worst Christmas gift you ever received?
???? 

12. Favorite Christmas Movie?
a boyfriend for christmas

13. When do you start shopping for Christmas?
the day after.

14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present?
yes i have

15. Favorite thing to eat at Christmas?
mildred chocolate cake

16. Lights on the tree?
yes... all colors

17. Favorite Christmas song?
christmas cannon

18. Travel at Christmas or stay home?
i have to travel to go home

19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeer?\
Dasher Dancer Prancer Vixen Comit and Cupid and Donder andBlitzen, Rudolph

20. Angel on the tree top or a star?
Angel

21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning?
MORNING

22. Most annoying thing about this time of the year?
crowds, traffic

23. Favorite ornament theme or color?
my picture on the ash tray.

24. Favorite Christmas dinner?
Maw Maw and Paw Paws lunch spread.  It's a pop luck.

25. What do you want for Christmas this year?
Toyota Truck

Ok---All of you blog stalkers...I'm tagging...
1. Nate

Friday, December 12, 2008

Something about the Stars


Go look at the stars.  I dare you.  Find a place where you can see them.  Living near a big city that task was hard to accomplish but somehow I found a spot.  Its at the Race Track.  If you've never noticed there isn't any light in the middle of the giant parking lot/ fields.  You can go there, look up and see the stars and the moon.  I love it.  For me looking at the stars is a way of going home. I forget where I am, the issues in my life, and problems I am facing.  When I look up I think about home, I think about Costa Rica, I think about night sledding, I think about the last evening with a friend, I reflect on life, I get lost into a wave of memories.  It doesn't matter where I am at the moment I gaze into the night sky, I am overwhelmed by the calming consistency of the way it looks.  The familiarity of it looking the same is comforting.  SO tonight is special.  Tonight the moon is to appear larger than it has all year long.  It's not that the moon has increased in size, its the fact the earth is closer to the moon.  So the moon is going to shine a little more light on the earth.  I got to thinking.  When we are resting in God and abiding in him He seems bigger.  He seems to be shining more light on issues in our life.  He seems to reveal himself more to us than before.  God hasn't gotten larger, we have just gotten closer.  You'll be surprised where you are taken when you stop and look at something as simple as the stars.     

Thursday, December 4, 2008

OH...to be 8 again

2nd grade.  Mrs. Hicks School Bus ride home.  Off course being the last one off the bus gave you advantages over the other kids. 
1. You saw where everybody lived
2. Learned many different streets and directions
3. Given more freedom to roam the bus when everybody got off (meaning move seats to talk to friends)
4. Sing songs/play hand games across the aisle of the bus, which is how I met my best friend.
Casey and I both knew the song "Should have Been a Cowboy" by Toby Keith.  This was how we met.
Casey lived 3 miles up the road, which is great because she was the only friend I had at school close enough to come over and play.  SO, all the days of going to her house, or she coming to my house can not be counted, but they are remembered.  The days of not having a care and the biggest concern was mastering the front handspring, or racing each other across the yard.  Just playing.  Just running.  Just having Fun.  Oh the joys of a best friend.  So, where is she?  As time has passed we don't go to each other's houses anymore.  We haven't seen each other in forever. And honestly I haven't talked to her in quite a while.  But I still consider her one of my best friends.  Because a best friend is someone that I can not speak with for years, call them up, and it seem like it was yesterday when we last spoke.  A best friend is someone who will listen to you, cry with you, and be there for you no matter what.  
Now, I have several friends that fit this discripiton, but only one lifelong.
Oh to be eight again and singing on the bus! 

Monday, December 1, 2008

Confused


So for the past week I have been in this state of confusion, loneliness, and just emptiness. I didn't know why. I mean, I have been at complete rest with God putting me in the place, putting me in this job, and just having me at this point in my life... but still confusion. And yesterday at Church Clayton King (amazing pastor FYI) was guest speaker and it was as though God gave him these words to tell me... Clayton said, "He is still Lord, in your confusion, loneliness, desperation, He is still Lord." I know... I know... Heather you know this, but it kind of resonated with me yesterday. Again, I was reminded I have no control over anything, He is Lord, and my plans really don't matter because it is God's plans that I desire. Granted I don't understand what they are but I play inning by inning. It seems I have to keep being reminded because often I want to slip back into trying to plan things out, trying to make My plans work. It says in the Bible ask and it shall be given, well, true but only if what you are asking for is in the desires of what God has for you. So really I have to keep asking God and resting in God to make my desires come from Him, so when I do ask I will receive. Sometimes it’s hard because sometimes what I desire isn’t a desire from God. “Lord I ask for your desires to become my desires.”