Dear Daddy,
Well, they gave you flowers. Bethlehem put the flowers at Homecoming in honor of you. They were beautiful and Matt and Kayla bought them. It made me almost cry to think you meant that much to them that they would send such a sentiment from Montana. I will say, the church yard was not up to your standard. I felt that Clint mowed it in a hurry, when you would have mowed it a few times to keep from making a hay field. But other than that the yard did look nice.
Momma went with Martha (you know that was a trip) to go pick out your stone. I haven't seen it. I will see it when I visit. I haven't came yet. I'll come when the lantern is out there. I don't want to be out there in the dark either....
Knox will talk about you. He was looking for you at Bethlehem when we were there for homecoming. He knows you are with Jesus, and he thinks Jesus is at church but he can't seem to find the right church. It makes me cry when he asks where you are. I wish he could understand, but at the same time I am glad he thinks he will find you. Like, "When I get big, I'm gonna ride on the firetruck with Paw Paw."
I have to remind myself not the grieve what I think is missed but be thankful for what I have.
You were in my dreams two nights ago. You were sitting in the chair at the kitchen table. Had it turned to see me and we were just talking. I wish I could remember what the conversations were about, but we were talking. I remember in my dream telling myself to not wake up. Just don't wake up. Now I wish I would have said remember what you are saying :)
School is back and it's a hot mess. I feel like a first year teacher again, going home and doing work each night to stay caught up.
Neal- well, he will look like you. I hope he keeps trying to do everything Knox does. There is something to be said for determination, but I also wish he would be a little more laid back like you and go with the flow. That boy is something else.
Until next time.
Be Particular,
Me.
PS. They are calling each other, but sometimes Knox calls you...
