summer

This is my first summer in the states since college.  I must say I haven't had a summer vacation in a long time.  It's nice being able to wake up, run, read the word, drink coffee, type a blog, paint, sit by a pool, hang out with O, and work the diner.  That's my summer.  It's amazing.  3 days off a week!!  I don't get three days off in a month. So, no good jungle stories this summer.  But, I do think something big is going to happen.  Don't know what but something.  Either in my life or in the life of someone close to me.  Because my big question has been why am I not in Costa?  Why am I here?  I don't know if I will get one answer.  I will say God is at work.  My prayer has been Lord work in me so I can work in them.  I have so many relationships that I am building with people who are open to something, who are searching for something, who are ready.  For example, I wait table at a diner and the other day one of my customers and I were conversing when we got on the subject of who God is and how he sees us.  Well, let me say this scares me to death.  Sometimes I get to this point where I wonder what to say next, how to act.  So I have to stay in tune to the spirit and how the spirit is speaking to me.
I am still praying for my Greek family!  Lord, is that why I'm in Concord?  Maybe!
Granted I'm not in a foreign land serving for Jesus but I will say I believe my service here this summer is going to impact my lives than I know.  So this is my prayer, Lord keep me focused, keep my grounded, keep me in you and you in me!  And in the school year when I am slammed busy, I feel as though I don't keep this focus. God is so Great.  He is moving.  Watch out world!  Watch out Concord!

a rant

Really?  Am I wrong?  Am I that wrong?  How could I have been that off?  I'm not one to open up.  I'm not one to just let people in easily unless I'm sure I'll be treated okay.  I don't like jokes so I don't play them on people.  I don't like to be lied to, misled, or take advantage of.  So, how was I fooled?  I don't know.  But as it goes: trick me once your a fool, trick me twice I'm a fool.  And guess what buddy row... I ain't no fool!
Bad Grammar..> i know.  But i'm just saying.

I'm not a spring chicken anymore.

I have multiple stories to share about my mini vacation with the rents over this past weekend.  I think I should add the fact, I have not went on vacation with my parents since before college.  So, i was a little nervous about how I would do spending 24 hours with my momma, but I had a blast.  It was nice to be a "kid" again.  To have someone over me to make decisions.  It was a nice break.  I think as a kid I was so gun hoe about not having my parent make decisions, but now I can appreciate a break from being an adult.

Story One: The groundhog.  Before we even left the Lasley plantation I was laughing my face off at my parents.  Dutchess, the farm dog, was barking her heart out at a pile of dirt.  My daddy being the curious george that he is had to figure out what was pestering this dog.  Well, it was a ground hog.  You must know that my daddy was a deep down hatred for ground hogs.  He thinks they play games with him on his many endeavors to trap and destroy the little pests. So, here's my knight and shinning armor of a father poking a stick at this little ground hog, while momma and myself wait patiently in the driver side opened door car. (the driver door being open is a key part to this story.)  The ground hog is scared trying to figure out where to go, my daddy is jumping around wondering where it is going, and all the while I am thinking what is he trying to do.  Daddy takes a kick at the ground hog... and misses.  Hit's the dirt.  Straight up kicked the dirt.  Then tried again, and kicked the little pest.  Not to be deterred, that little rodent went back to the other side of the dirt pile only to be followed by my father.  Who, got his stick out and poked the ground hog one more time.  Well, this time the ground hog took off.  Straight towards our car.  Straight towards the open door on the car.  Straight towards my Momma, who has by this time unbuckled her seat belt, has her hand on the door handle and ready to jump out of the vehicle and let the ground hog have it.  While Momma is trying to flee, daddy is now running after the rodent with is hands in front, as though he's trying to catch it, saying, "oh no... not the door.  Not the car."  I'm in the back seat in tears from laughing.  This is my family.  This is the start of my weekend.  Oh my....
Well the ground hog did not jump in the car (good thing because Momma would have blamed daddy for leaving the door open!) it ducked down below the chassis towards the barn, only to mock my father another day.

Story 2:... Apollo's Chariot.

disappointment

Disappointment comes in many forms.  Not getting an A on a paper, rain on a swim day, etc... Disappointment sometimes comes from people.  For me I have been disappointed by few people in my life but each time has been the same situation.  So I have often times asked, "why does it always happen like this to me?"  But the question i should ask is, "what am I supposed to learn but haven't mastered yet."  Because, if I had learned my lesson this same disappointment would quit happening.  The solution is easy.  Keep your focus.  It's not what are you living for, but Who are you living for.  I think each time I start to look at the what and not the Who, is when the what becomes ammunition for the enemy to use.  Event's happen that test ones faith, but my faith is still growing.  It's still deepening.  I am still learning what authentic, true, undeterred faith really looks like.  So God... you know my heart, maybe you read my blog but... I've learned my lesson.  3rd time's a charm.  Thank you for the kick in the butt and wiper wipe on my windshield.  I see.  I have learned my lesson.  In every situation, in every relationship, make you number one.  Make you priority.  Make you my focus and "the things of life will grown strangely dim in the light of your glory and grace."

writer's block blocked by words

Writers block from way to much to say...  Organized thoughts are on the way.  And boy do I have some crazy junk to get out of my brain, heart and spirit!

New Friends... God knows when to send them!

God has really been teaching me something. I don't know what it is but it's something.  Patience, reliance, affirmation, or just plain listen.  So I wish I could explain what is going on but it's something that will not benefit and only cause more questions.  But you know, about the time I get down He puts people in my life that remind me what is up.  So, the past few weeks I have really loved getting to know one of the servers I work with.  I must say we can be good friends.  She helps me see things in my relationships I don't want to face.  And I help her by knowing exactly how she is feeling.  It's been an interesting past couple of weeks.  But as I have said before, I will wait.  Peace is Peace.  No pressure.  Not forced or manufactured.  It is something that will come.  I just have to wait for some growing up.