oh no

If you ever get the chance to coach a sport, do it, but after cuts run, hide under a rock, and don't come out for two days. Some people don' t understand. You try to make a team that will best represent your school, you try to pick a team of people with skill, coach able, and work hard. You have really good people, really bad people, and then the hardest group the ones in the middle. SO i urge you, if you have a kid that gets cut from the team, don't blame the coach. There is a big pot of people trying out. It all depends on what your kid is up against. I hate making cuts. I wish I could keep them all. But it's not doable. I'm sorry. It's all a part of life!

are you serious??

So I was just sitting here really in the dumps. Do you ever have one of those days? Just confused? Not sure what is going on. It was one of those days. It was day when the poop hits the fan and you're not sure which way is up. I was sitting here and just crying out to God asking him why I'm here. What is he doing and check out the verse he gave me.. unreal.. like instantly he showed me these verses... Phil: 1:21-26
Sometimes God has us where we are at, because His need for us there is far greater than our need to be somewhere else.
Man.. He always gives us what we need... always.. I love it!

So when the news I get isn't necessarily what I want to hear. Or what is happening isn't really what I feel God told me was going to happen. That's okay! It's okay! it's just remembering
-God doesn't put you in the fire to destroy your faith but to demonstrate His power
-FAITH is believing God CAN, EXPECTING that He will and TRUSTING Him if He doesn't

http://vimeo.com/6249081
just a good video.. made by elevation.. watch it!

so.. that's all... here I am..

you don't hear that?

Meandering to a different drum. My teacher mentor/friend gave me a plaque containing those words (Meandering to a different drum). That's how I feel. Okay. I'm 24. I look around at other 24 year old girls and I'm not like them! Then I think... my entire life I have never been like any of the status quo people my age. I have always been meandering to a different drum. I had a friend pass on a quote that said, "they may look at you like your crazy because they cant hear the music inside your head." I realize I am not normal. I think that scares people (especially boys). People have a hard time figuring me out. So.. here it goes. My life is dedicated to God. All I do and think I want solely from him to glorify him. NO.. I'm not perfect.. i don't do everything right.. and i know I mess up.. but I am truly willing to live out the spirit. So I look different. I act different. I think different. I'm just different. But I like it. So yeah I'm bebop in to my own drum.. heck.. it's my own band.. that's okay! I'm liking this music.

ananias

So in the book of Acts Ananias played an important part in the forming of the entire world. He obeyed God extended his hand to Saul (who later became Paul), prayed over him, and asked for Saul to be filled with the spirit. Ananias. This the only time he is mentioned. He was willing to intervene. He was willing to obey God. He said Yes Lord. With one obedient act, with one sentence, with one prayer, the scales fell from Saul's eyes and he was changed. He was Paul. Paul went to reach the gentiles for Christ. I don't know about y'all but I'm not a Jew, so if the gentiles weren't reached.. then ultimately i wouldn't have been reached... crazy to think about i know, but it's true. I want to be Ananias. I want to be the intervention. I want to be obedient and listen to Christ is such away the entire world will be changed by one church invite, by one prayer, by one word of encouragement. My prayer is to stay at rest with Christ. In my spirit. To be the intervention, because this world and even the church (yes many bible belt holy roly religious organizations) need the scales to be removed from their eyes. They need a resurrection injection.
Lord I ask for ears to hear you and you alone! Let me be Ananias to the world around me.

maw maw's manicure

My cousin Abigail wanted to take maw maw to the nail place to get her nails done. Well, Monday was the big day. The first thing maw maw was worried about was the fact she was wearing shorts to town. Of course it's 100 degrees outside, but maw maw thought an 80 something (she never says her real age because i don't' think she remembers) year old woman shouldn't go in shorts. We reassured her it was okay. We then were told we have to drive her car. Which makes since because she has her system of how to get in the car. All of which we did not do the way Neal (that's paw paw) does. For example.. i didn't park in the right spot at the end of the ramp. It's funny! So we get to the nail place and maw maw picks out strawberried in the sand color for her nails. The little Asian girl gets to work and maw maw was loving it! She really liked the smell of the lotion. So when it was all said and done maw maw got her first manicure at the age of 80 something (she'll be 84 in September).

Well of course we had to stroll over to the walmart. Maw Maw needed some new reading glasses, a bath towel (because the one she has is too big)... i know but she says its too big to be a bath towel and dry off with so she needs a smaller one... and some wash rags. The best part was the confused/amazed face of maw maw when we went through the self checkout. Not having a cashier blew her mind.

The hardest part was getting maw maw back in the car. I'm sure we looked like a comedy act. Maw Maw has on one black glove, me holding her britches, Abbie moving the wheelchair, and maw maw almost sliding out into the parking lot.. but she got in the car! What a day!

If you ever get the chance. Take an 80 something year old lady to get their nails done. I would stick with fingernails.. not quite sure how the feet would go over.

Faith

Faith is a word we hear all the time, especially if you were raised in a church. Well Faith is believing what one does not see. SO when you are truly at rest with God and living by the spirit sometimes the spirit speaks to you and you don't really understand. You don't understand because what the spirit is saying you can't see here (on this earth) at the current moment happening. But faith is obeying the spirit. Seeing into the unknown. Okay.. so all of the heather lasley Websters definition of FAITH to say sometimes I doubt. Yeah Yeah i know I know.. but come on, be honest, you doubt too. When I doubt is where I agree with the devil and then he has some kind of authority over the situation. The sneak...

Here it is. Honest to goodness God gave me a word a couple years ago. I wrote it down if you don't believe me! So far this word from the spirit hasn't came through. From my viewpoint it seems as though the likelihood of it happening, based on current circumstances from what I see on the earth, is this word from the spirit is never going to happen. But that is not faith. From what I see here on the earth with my eyes say I'm crazy for ever believing what the Lord told me. Here is where faith comes in. Believing in the unseen. Not agreeing with the enemy trying to tell me that it wasn't the spirit. Faith is trusting. God is teaching me. If what he said happened right off or happened very easily how would my faith grow. Believing in the unseen. Believing in the word he gave. I used to get in the way. Not anymore. I have stepped out. I'm waiting... have been waiting... continue to wait.

Today I see pictures. My first thought is from the enemy. See I told you. But my second thought was from me saying in the name of Jesus back off. At one point I would have believed the enemy's lie but that's what cool. It's cool to see how much my faith has grown. So thank you Lord. It's in this waiting period that God proves his faithfulness because I want all aspects of my life to live by faith. It's the times that he proves his faithfulness that pull us through when things seem bleak. Think Elijah... go read the story!.. It's cool to see how God proves his faithfulness!!

OH and if there are crazy sentences in this blog it's because the guy beside me in the computer lab is watching You Tube videos on crazy old soccer and I can't concentrate very well. It's taken me forever just to form the words above...

so long for now!

GOP 2009

If you talk to me you will know that when God told me to go back to Central America this summer I was thinking, "why God?" Well, being obedient I returned. I absolutely love it there. It is amazing to see how far the center has came within the past year. The bugs were fewer, we had hot water the last week we were there, and God moved big!! So this year I was placed in a leadership role. This role consisted of guiding a book study, loving on these girls, and praying continuously... oh and driving(aka four wheeling) every time we left the mountain. Let me tell you... God moved in these girls. He destroyed strongholds. He revealed Himself for who he is and how He sees them. We are princesses to the king. Think about that. Princess. Being a princess means I have some power, some authority, only because of who my daddy is. We were taught and disciplined in the Kingdom of God. FYI... in case your church has failed to tell you.. the Kingdom of God is here!!! it's on earth now... because the holy spirit is within all of God's children. The problem is we don't always allow the holy spirit to be lived out in our lives. We learned how to fight the spiritual realm of heaven. We learned how to abide. We learned. God moved. Again, I can safely say no person goes on the mountain and not leave a stronger person.

As for me. God took many things to a deeper level of understanding. Some of the same truths He revealed to me last summer he took to a deeper level. He also taught me to allow him to speak. Trust. I learned how to better recognize his voice. It was my prayer for God to anoint my mind, eyes, ears, and tongue so the words that came were his and not my own. You know what.. He did!!! I learned how to pray. Pray Heaven to Earth. Asking God how to pray for a certain problem of situation! Amazing. There is no one reason as to why I returned. God moved. I was the vessel. I was willing to go. He'll uses the willing.

Will I return?? Not sure. Probably. Part of me thinks that I'll live there one day but I will defiantly have to be married. So that's the prayer. A man who will up and live in the jungle!! OH and have some pretty tough hands... hehehehe